Huell

Huell

Friday, 28 March 2014

Future Plans (29/03/14)

In life, you have to play the long game.

I am someone who thinks about the future a lot but at the same time I generally take each day as it comes. I set myself rough goals, often without a set time to attain them, knowing myself enough to know that I will eventually reach them but not necessarily in an ideal or efficient way. Of course I hope to improve this over the course of my life. It is probably something that gets better with age, considering it has improved for me in my 20s quite a bit. Anyway I would like to discuss those goals.

There are certain things I want in life. I do not want to have children and I'd rather avoid getting married. This saddens my girlfriend who wants both, but me, I want to avoid responsibilities and cumbersome commitments wherever possible. I will take them on when I am ready. What I do want is to be well-travelled, experience the world and learn different cultures and languages. I want to be comfortable financially, but perhaps too much money would be better in the pockets of those who need it more, so if I ever got too much, I'd probably give it away till I had only slightly more than enough to keep me and mine well nurtured for this lifetime. Nevertheless I will pursue this wealth constantly. One of the ways I want to pursue this wealth is by playing poker. It is one of my favourite things to do. For the past few years I have thought about how I want to go about it, and I know that for my niche, playing mixed games and fixed limit, my best play is to go to America. There is nowhere else in the world that I know about that has my games so well spread in a live setting, played at such a wide variety in stakes and I believe the games over there are far more plentiful than those on the Internet.

Obviously this is a poker blog in the main, so I have to talk about this specific goal more than any other. It's the intended key topic in this post anyway. I don't know where I would live or whether I would live there permanently. Maybe I would go for a set period for a long holiday every year and come back to England. There are a number of stumbling blocks which get in my way or things with which I take issue and deter action. I will address those.

Firstly there is the problem of money. I just got paid, so right now I have £1500 in the wages account, £1k in the poker current account, and £610 in the poker savings account. And of course, only 50% of the profit on the poker money is currently truly mine, so £555. My bills+rent are only about £350 a month, which has been great because it's allowed me to grow money slowly over time. My girlfriend and I are looking to move house and increase what we're spending a month as a result in exchange for larger accommodation and things like a dishwasher and better furniture. I have got out the calculator and seen that my average increase in balance over the 10 months I've been working at Grosvenor is +£87.83. I think this will increase as long as I maintain my spending discipline. But to cut to the chase, these gains at that rate aren't going to cut it by any stretch if I want to go to America. So I am hoping that I can make enough money in this DC game at Alea  to have something with which I can work. From there, I will have to think about it. I know I might have to play higher stakes or find another game, even move city.

Another stumbling block is my feelings on the political situation over there. I make no secret of the fact that I am of a libertarian persuasion. I don't like the government getting involved in anything beyond the realm of national defence (not galavanting around the world showing people that apparently freedom comes from airstrikes and the barrel of tanks and machine guns) and upholding private contracts through the rule of law. I hate socialism. In England I feel the government is involved in way too much stuff, particularly the economy. There are some things that happen today that we've read in Orwell's 1984. But compared to America, this place is heaven in that regard. They have checkpoints at state borders, warrantless searches, high taxation, NSA spying on everyone, Guantanamo Bay, the death penalty, mandatory minimum sentences for drug possession/distribution, militarized police, police brutality, the clampdown on guns, ObamaCare, SOPA, NDAA, they consistently disregard their constitution, and of course, they just love themselves a bit of war so much they spend a $600 billion every year on it (higher than any other country and six times that of China). It goes on. For me as a poker player, the things which particularly affect me are the taxation of winnings, the raiding of home poker games, the confiscation of money when crossing state/national borders (Viffer has a story about that) and the fact that you are not allowed to play online poker in the US outside some states who have intrastate poker like Bovada. I know that people over there do not like where their government is taking their country, but the political system they have greatly inhibits significant change and they are resigned to vote Republican until a better system comes along (pro tip: unless there's some sort of violent revolution, it won't) which unfortunately means more war... somewhere. They wish they could vote Libertarian and have their votes mean anything, but apparently voters as a whole suck at game theory and will generally only choose what everyone else is choosing who are also choosing what everyone else is choosing because everyone else is choosing it. Republican or Democrat. Giant Douche or Turd Sandwich. Those are the options. It's very much the same over here, but government interference over here is more reasonable and softer, like a creeping vine that hopes you don't notice.

Another issue is finding the right people to go with me. I know one person I would definitely go with who is interested, but unfortunately the kind of poker players with whom I'd prefer to team up with on this venture are few and far between. That's because, as someone pointed out to me recently, there are very few people will take my proposal seriously enough to think ahead and save money and make every effort for this thing to go ahead. Think of me as Knish. I'm not looking for gamblers, fritterers, bad beat monologuers or people who play the game recreationally with no higher objective. I want positively minded people who'd do this as a job and not go broke because the have the discipline to manage money, their emotions, and the commitment to identify and relentlessly and unwaveringly pursue their dreams and ambitions and see poker as the way to do it. There are plenty of people who would love to jump on the plane with me and visit the American poker hotspots. Every poker player loves the idea of a blinged up grind house with all his/her poker mates from which he/she can go forth and adventure and have the time of his/her life and bring home stacks of green paper and entourages of the opposite sex lusting after them. But so few of them have the discipline or current ability to succeed. I believe any player can improve and has the potential to have what it takes, perhaps more some than others, but the potential is there. But a great many don't have the ambition to go after it, or are simply arrogant and believe their game is utterly insurmountable. 

Finally something else which prevents me going is my relationship with Emma. I do love her and don't believe we will break up because of my ambitions but at the same time we both know that she cannot come with me to America in 2/3 years' time because she has to pursue her studies and become a super accountant. I talked to her tonight and said that I would wait for her. She was worried that I'd leave her if I got myself in a position to do so, with the £35k+ I'd need to to across the pond and stay permanently because I mentioned in my proposal it could be a permanent move. My original proposal was 2 or 3 years time being enough to get there. But I don't really know what the future holds or whether I would stay permanently. As Emma and I discussed, I might only go as a holiday and decide whether I like it. One thing's for sure though; beyond everything else she does for me and is to me, I need her because she is a professional and marrying her is my ticket into the US. I've told her. US immigration policy is quite strict and there are limited ways to gain permanent residence, and none of them are easy for an unskilled unwealthy individual such as myself.

The overall plan is to get rich and live comfortably and not die unsatisfied. I'm sure it will happen at some point. That's the long game.

Wednesday, 26 March 2014

Staked To Play: Live (25/03/14)



& Other Life Events

Update as not done one for a long while. One of my previous backers offered me a new deal to play live poker. I said on my Facebook status I was interested in doing a deal and he messaged me. It was a great result. It's been a month so far (March 14) and I've played 3 out of 4 weeks, playing once a week with sessions lasting 4 to 5 hours, but they can go on for longer. I started end of February. I've done really well so far and I'm delighted with it all and I know he is very pleased with me as he is odds on to make relatively a lot of money without hardly lifting a finger.
Dealer's Choice
I've been playing £1/£1 Dealer's Choice at my local casino. The game is insanely good and I've won every single week so far. It is almost comical that I have built my reputation in the game as a very tight solid player who always has the nuts yet the other players continue to firstly remind each other of this fact and then proceed to dump chips to me. I am not complaining one little bit; I love it! So far I have encountered only one other player that plays like me. The rest are whales, er, I mean, recreational players who adopt a sub-optimal playing style. So far I have won £1110, having started with just £500. I am buying in for £100 (100 big blinds), and right now my average win is £370. Of course I will continue to post my progress with regards to these numbers over the coming weeks and months as this is my new little hobby.
Bouncebackability
Of course it could just be that everything is falling my way and I'm bound to have a set back or two. One of the three weeks did not go to plan but I still came away with a £37 profit. I was £125 down (having bought in for £100 initially) and kept at it, eventually exhibiting some bouncebackability. I am hoping that was a "bad" week, because if it is, I am going to be able to have a £50 pound note bath in a year's time. Sessions so far:
Week 1: £+507, Week 2: +£37, Week 3: Did not attend (had a cold), Week 4: +£566.
Total Bankroll: £1610.
Tipping
I've decided that I am not going to tip waitresses/dealers or pay for food out of my bankroll. The numbers get screwed up too easily. I know I am a dealer and we rely on tips and it's expected that we tip back, but I am not at the poker table to give money away. I would be OK with it if I was not backed and had a lot more bankroll, but for me it is just poor bankroll management to give money away like that, however small. And let's not forget, it's not my money I am playing with until the staking deal is done.
Other News
In other news I am doing very well in life I think. My living standard has rocketed over the past year due to a series of fortunate events. Last year I was working for Dusk Till Dawn as a dealer, living on my own, sharing a place with my landlord. I was single, smoked quite a lot and it was a relatively poor existence. Then I met my girlfriend, Emma, who has become very special to me. She works so hard and has an immeasurable kindness and generosity about her, and she will do anything to keep me happy. After seeing her a while, late in December '12 I lost my job at Dusk due to my timekeeping and attendance issues that I had the whole year I was there. They fired me. So I didn't have any money coming in. Then my friends asked me to come and help them out with their agricultural business and they needed me to move away from Nottingham. So I did, they came with a van and I loaded my stuff up and spent the next 2 months living on a farm. Emma was in frequent contact and missed me. She was sad to see me leave. I told my friends I was going to see her and so I got the train back to Nottingham and spent a week with her. I then got a phone call from a friend saying that I couldn't come back to work with them because the business wasn't working out and I would need to collect my stuff. I told Emma and she said I could stay with her. So I asked my friends to deliver my stuff to me but it turned out that we ended up, Emma and I, going down there and picking it all up in her car. Let me tell you, driving round Wales is a fucking nightmare, and I had to rely on Google maps on my phone. We ended up going around in circles because I am a terrible copilot and Emma panics a lot under pressure. We made it back though and here I am. Anyway, after that, I was unemployed from March to June and it was a pretty stressful time for us because I put her under a lot of financial stress because she helped me out a lot in that way. I was getting my social security benefits but when they didn't come in because of sanctions (when I didn't make it to the job centre on time) it made things difficult for us. But we were determined to get through it and I was applying for jobs left right and centre.
Improving
As luck would have it, I was granted an opportunity at a local casino in June '13 and I've been a dealer there ever since, so about 9 months now. I've been working there, paying off my credit card and splitting my rent/bills with Emma according to how much we both earn (usually works out about her paying 55%, me paying 45% of everything), and now I've got this staking deal. I've been buying little bits and bobs like shoes, clothes and generally life quality improving stuff, alongside saving up for this TEFL business that I am confident will go ahead come September. Even work has improved, with a refurbishment scheduled at some point, our card room going from strength to strength and I have become well respected amongst my peers. I even got a new bank account, credit card, and savings account for my poker money to go in. My relationship with Emma is flourishing still, and life is good. Really good. And I am happy.

Over and out


-LV